Sleepless In Fort Worth

"Morning Run, Oxford, England

I am concerned with the state of my sleep disorder. For several months now I have been taking over the counter sleep aids to help me get what sleep I get. They have been increasingly ineffective, so much so that I gave them to Will so I would not take them. As a person with an addictive personality, if they are there I will take them whether or not they are as effective as they should be in an attempt to get any kind of sleep at all. In yesterday's post I told you about our all night conversation on Skype. I was tired, and I went to bed but only slept 3.5 hours before waking after having been up for over 24 hours.I have gotten both Will and I registered now with the public health hospital so in the next few weeks we should be able to get some health care. One of the major priorities will be the treatment of my depression which will probably include prescription sleep aids. I am hoping to resolve this as I do not know how much longer I can continue to function with 2 or 3 hours of daily sleep. I am already a raging bitch a great deal of the time because of this and the stress from other areas of my life. This is unfair to Will and highly upsetting to me. Thankfully, as my best friend he has been very understanding but it is worrisome for him. I can see why he is but at this moment, I do not know what else I can do. some shrink is going to have a field day inside my head. I do not care as long as he fixes me enough to get some actual rest when I do sleep. When I do sleep, I am restless, do not really rest and wake with a raging headache. Suggestions, anyone

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