The Darkness Within

My head has been in a really dark place the last few days. I knew I had it bad when I could not even bring myself to sort through my collection for hot guys to post. There are those times when the darkness just sweeps out of nowhere to engulf me and I can do nothing but ride out the storm. The storm was a doozy this time. I hate it when I get this way as I know that there is always someone out there who has it rougher than I. That still does not prevent me from being engulfed in the darkness. Knowing something and accepting it are two different things. This morning I seem to be in a better place. The darkness is still there flickering around the edges of my psyche waiting for he opportunity to sweep over me in a moment of weakness. I am fighting to come out of it, I do not want to give into it again. My emotions are ragged and my nerves are raw but I see the dawn however distant it may be.

It is at times like this I am grateful for a forum like Nichevo in which I can express myself openly. By writing my thoughts here I expunge them from my soul and cast them adrift hoping a fresh breeze will take them away and replace the darkness with the light. While I always aim to make Nichevo a positive place for you guys to come and visit, there are times when I am just not able to do so with my writing. Those are the days I have to guard myself when posting so the bitterness and darkness does not show through. I am ever so thankful for the feedback that I get from you guys out there. It is a source of strength for me upon which I rely, sometimes more heavily than others. I have made many friends here without which my life would surely be poorer. As more and more of you discover my little corner of the world, I strive to be a place you want to come back to. It is my hope that by telling you about the darkness I feel at times does not dissuade you from coming back to see the brighter days. Be patient with me as I fight the darkness to bring to you the sunny outlook I more often than not have to display.

I was able to select some eye candy for you today so I know I am getting better. Be well and come back again, I look forward to your visits and your responses. Until next time as always, Enjoy!